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Gabriel and I are back at the hospital and things are going smoothly so far.  We had a little bit of a wait before we got admitted, so Gabriel just was silly passing time.

At first Gabe was just solemn huffing and puffing a lot behind his mask.  But, then his mood improved and he started doing a little shimmy dance around the waiting area.

We finally got admitted and assigned a room.  Once we got settled, it was pretty quick and Gabriel was just being his normal self, a lot of smiles mixed in with a lot of attitude.  Unfortunately, the “tude” doesn’t photograph well.

And, well, sitting around a hospital isn’t THAT exciting while waiting for your chemotherapy treatment to start, so it wasn’t long until he was keeping himself occupied playing Lego Star Wars.

And having fun at the same time.

Finally, around 9:30 last night they got his Nelarabine treatment started.  It was just another day at the ranch taking the chemo.

The Sandman found us around midnight and all in all it wasn’t too bad of a nights sleep.  This morning we woke up to rain showers developing into rain.  Just another day in the hospital here in Oakland.

This whole experience is just truly humbling.  I think Gabriel expressed it as well as anyone can the other night as we were driving home from the St. Baldrick’s event.  We were talking about how difficult the experience is, that it’s not fair that children have to go through this, and that cancer is a pretty horrible disease.

However, despite all that he has been through, Gabriel says:

“I’m a tiny tiny bit glad I got this cancer.”

He continued:

“Because, if I hadn’t I wouldn’t have learned so much.”

Gabriel is absolutely right.  As a family we are a tiny tiny bit glad this happened.  We’re gaining so much right now, and I know we will continue to gain so much as a result of this experience.  We continue to meet people we’d never otherwise have the pleasure of getting to know.  We’re learning things about the amazing human nature of people who are friends and family. We’re learning, continually, about the grace of God.

And, even as Gabriel experiences the physical toll of the cancer, the emotional and psychological toll of isolation, even he is able to see the silver lining on this very dark cloud.  There is a pretty large dose of perspective.

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